Dance Of Despair

 

Listen to the tale I will tell you my love
a thousand years has certainly gone by
the sorrow I felt, the want to die
one thing thru my hurt I didn't know my love
I was carrying your gift under my heart
remembering with tearful eyes but smiling tonight
despite the hurt I was going thru,
I thank you for this gift that is not a lie
a baby to be born, that is so true

I have to run, run after those small tiny feet
Running in the shade under the grand mapletree
I have to run again, run after my life
laughing and looking at your eyes so sweet
The butterflies you try to catch, they want to be free
free as the wind and as the birds want to be

I sit down on the fresh green grass
a flower in his hand is what he has.
He gives it to me and a kiss after that
I look in your eyes with the smile in them as
the shiniest smile they reminds me of what
of you they remind my forever love

He's just like you, but you don't know my love
Soon surrounded we are by the fall
then the green very fast will be gone
a sea of colours will follow very strong
giving place to a beauty that fills it all
Your small feet will not be running bare
small tiny shoes will show that I care

Years has gone by and I still hear the steps
small tiny feet in the rain got so wet
I listen to the wind if a message they bring
the wind blows up leaves and form a ring

In a hum and a mumble I began to sing
"Where did you go when I lost you my sweet
I have cried many tears and my sorrow is near
I will never forget the day you disappeared
never will I hear happy laughter again
and see my little angel dancing in the rain!"

Gone with the wind has my life flown by
like flickering wings of the Phoenix in fire
Just fall to sleep and never to wake
forgetting forever the endless ache
This path to eternity I want to follow
maybe it's the way to the enchanted hollow

Ache in my heart, my eyes filled with tears
words sounds so clearly in my ears
the last ones that I ever heard from you
"I love you Mum, and it's known you love me too!"
To hard to bare and to hard to live with
swallow the poison, that was what I did

The last thing I saw was the dance of the stars
my heart was too sore by too many scars
I knew, in a moment I would hold you tight
I would give up easily without any fight
I promised you my baby,
I would never leave you alone

Wave,  baby wave
to the life where mom had once belong
the life of emptiness with just a moment of awe
the torturer held me prisoner
in the darkness where he kept
my heart tightly strangled
from where it lead to my grave
Now and forever the small steps I hear
Dance with the wind baby always now near

Copyright © 2003 Dreamcreature

 

"Dance Of Despair!" a homenagem to my unborn child, a son that disappeared before he even reach the world for to see the sun nor the moon! "My baby, mommy will never forget you and you live still deep deep in my heart, there you will be kept until that special day arrives that we will never more be apart!" "Fly my little Angel fly, Mommy loves you and I always hear your call!"