I fight night
and day to keep my sanity
Thoughts are a
mix up of depressing horrors
I keep seeking
outside of me
and I don't
even give a thought
I should be
seeking inside instead
I keep seeking
for that neverborn hero
who will
rescue me from this dark oppression
until the sun
will be gone
and merged in
a red sea of heavenly blood
It becomes
hard to carry this burden alone
wake up to a
new day alone
to walk my
path of life alone
I just try to
carry on
with the
darkness surrounding
from every
corner
I can't
fulfill my wishes of a lighter day
I try hard to
carry on
even if I
can't bare the sound of life
I feel the
heavy burden only gets heavier
Isn't there
anybody out there
who could help
me to carry this weight
who could ease
my way
to walk
through the daily thorns?
I am bleeding,
bleeding hard
inside and out
tears of
sorrow, yet of horror
tears of hurt
for to have to live
I wish I
wouldn't wake up to this dark reality
I would sleep
through one whole generation
to wake up to
another life
outside,
somewhere else
Maybe in the
Cyber Universe
1st August
2004
